Damned Disease

[barrym]

Hi all, hope I find everybody well. Had my worst crash to date over the past few weeks and still struggling to get back on feet. Put some stuff into words with the way I had been feeling last few weeks, I called it Damned Disease, I'm no poet but find it easier to write my feelings down and hope some can relate.

Damned Disease

I don't want a life of continuous pain
Of dark clouds, depression and never ending rain
I want sunshine, rainbows and golden colored trees
But that is so hard because of this damned disease

I wish I could tell you just how I feel
When people will comment 'it ain't even real'
This hand I've been dealt, it couldn't be tougher
Against the full house of pain I've been made to suffer

The body is weak, the head is a mess
The throbbing, the stabbing, the constant distress
The aching, the burning, the never ending fatigue
The days when the pain shifts to another league

The headaches, the fog, the vision that's hazy
The comments that's made ' it's just that he's lazy'
I've been to the bottom, to the depths of despair
The increasing pain with every fibro flare

But the time has come, it's gonna be tough
To fight this beast, enough is enough
I'll bob and I'll weave, I'll duck and I'll dive
But now it's my time to shout that I am alive

I will not flinch, I will not freeze
Until I beat this damned disease

BarryM

[Robby]

Barry that is good, would it be ok if I shared it on my Facebook fibro page? I'll keep your name on it of course.

[barrym]

RobbyK, thanks and feel free to use it wherever you wish

BarryM

[denny]

Nice! I like that.

[countryboy]

What do you mean 'I'm no poet'?  O think this post is wonderful.  It really expresses a very true feeling with Fibro.  Well done sir.   

[DEL]

Your words are true and painful-only those who experience what you wrote can truly appreciate the feeling behind them!

[looneylane]

 

[WolfSoul]

That is wonderful!



WolfSoul

[Robby]

Barry, just wanted to let you know that when I posted this on my facebook page, there were over 500 comments about how great it is.

[jmanwithfm]

Very nice Barry. Thanks for sharing this with us.

[pizzaman242]

It is a very good poem that captures the true essence of what our day to lives are like and the process we all go through from diagnosis to acceptance.

In my humble opinion I feel it should be pinned so it will not get lost with the passage of time, but will remain for later members to read and appreciate.

So what say you guys, should this be pinned or not.

[Robby]

I say PIN IT!

[ronr]

Written with the voice of experience !

[barrym]

Thanks for all the kind comments. For some reason when in a bad flare the mind goes into overdrive and I start writing a lot of stuff, mainly a lot of crap  Probably do it to try occupy the brain and take my mind of the pains ( stops the bouts of anxiety that also seem to be creeping in a bit more often nowadays). One of the others done recently was called Reflection and is based on the feelings at the beginning of the flare when things can't seem to get any worse, then the days later when you are coming out the other side. Again I'm sure you can all relate. Thanks again and wishing all my fellow online friends a very Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year when it comes.

Reflection

I sit and watch his tears roll down, his expression turning to a frown
I look at him he looks at me, his pain not wanting anyone to see
A broken man who once was proud, only moans to himself never aloud
I watch and stare, so hard to bare
As I wait for his pain to pass
Then I see, that man is me, my reflection in the glass

No more tears no need to cry, I stop and wonder why
He smiles at me I smile at him, and then he breaks into a grin
On this day and on this night, he's beat the demon won his fight
I watch and stare, no need to care
There's no more pain to pass
He shouts come see, look at me, my new reflection in the glass

BarryM

[foxgrove]

Barry.. you are one talented poet brother!!  Thank you for pouring your talent into our mind..  It's good.. it's so true.. so very very real.  Well done!!  Thank you.